Somedays

I will admit...somedays are harder than others. Somedays I feel so alone, so sad, so far away. I would give anything to be with my husband and just living life day in, day out as a normal couple. The little moments are what I miss the most. Coming home and getting a hug and a kiss, sitting on the couch snuggled watching a movie, making dinner together, being able to look in his eyes when he tells me he loves me, being able to laugh together and share our lives.  Being able to go do things together and to have a best friend to share each moment with.

We have always had a really good relationship and are the very best of friends and loved doing all these things together. But now that those things, and that one person is so absent from your physical day to day life, it feels like half of you is missing. Half your heart is so far away and trying to live life without that person is a pain that never seems to subside.

People that are with their spouse every day have no idea what it is like to live apart. I can tell you that it has helped me realize what really matters, to enjoy the little things, to not take anything for granted and to love my husband with every fiber of my being. To know that no matter the time, the space, the distance or the miles, nothing will ever change our love and our commitment to one another. If anything it makes it stronger. It makes you grateful for the love you have and the time you actually get to spend together. The little, insignificant things no longer matter and you find yourself letting go of things you would have normally let bother you. Nothing else matters, except being with that person and truly loving them and enjoying every second that you have.

So, the times apart and the heartache that never leaves your soul when you are apart, you let that make you stronger and you carry on through it all. You look forward to the next beautiful hello and try not to think about the next painful goodbye. You reach for the moment you will see them next and hold on to the beauty and the love that will fill each hour spent together. You remember how much they love you and you let that calm your heart as best it can when you are thousands of miles apart. You hold on best you can and look forward to the next few hours, days or months you have together and know that no matter what, in the end our love will carry us through.